we were young, we didn’t care

Today, upon finding out that Big Moy, the large gay guy at our school with a habbo haircut has a boyfriend, I came to the sad realisation that I am destined to be alone forever. No but really, my mind cannot comprehend this, perhaps I act as some sort of future boyfriend repellent, I wouldn’t doubt it. Oh well.
So far the holidays are going swimmingly, it’s only been 4 days in and already I’ve done loads of things, gained a slight tan and met new people. I miss when I used to write little stories and things to myself on here, I don’t even know if anyone reads this, or know the people that do, but I guess I missed writing for them too. It has also come to my attention that I’m going to have to tell him soon enough that I lied. Why did I lie? Why? I hate myself. This is going to be silly and probably make him as annoyed at me as I am, but it has to be done soon, not like I haven’t kept this little fib going for the past year or so. Stupid Maddie. It shouldn’t matter though, it doesn’t change who I am, but I know regardless of whatever excuse I use to try to comfort myself that he’s still going to be mad. And he has a right to be. I guess.
What goes on in my mind? Will somebody please tell me, I’d dearly like to know. Moral of the story: Don’t tell lies, ever.
Now if only I’d take my own advice.

do you want it all?

This weekend was so crazy, slept at Mel’s last night and we went to Bryan’s party. Can definately say I spent a little too much time in a Kimono and walked a really, really long way. It was a fun night though, but I’m so exhausted at the moment with no sleep and not enough brains to do the school work I need to finish, which means another extension english lesson I’ll spend making up an entire story to impress the teacher. She’s never impressed, though.
Also, the photo you see above is of me and nikki’s henna which Zarin did, I think they’re amazing and lovely, and I feel like I have a tattoo even though I don’t. WOAH