we were young, we didn’t care
December 19, 2010
Today, upon finding out that Big Moy, the large gay guy at our school with a habbo haircut has a boyfriend, I came to the sad realisation that I am destined to be alone forever. No but really, my mind cannot comprehend this, perhaps I act as some sort of future boyfriend repellent, I wouldn’t doubt it. Oh well.
So far the holidays are going swimmingly, it’s only been 4 days in and already I’ve done loads of things, gained a slight tan and met new people. I miss when I used to write little stories and things to myself on here, I don’t even know if anyone reads this, or know the people that do, but I guess I missed writing for them too. It has also come to my attention that I’m going to have to tell him soon enough that I lied. Why did I lie? Why? I hate myself. This is going to be silly and probably make him as annoyed at me as I am, but it has to be done soon, not like I haven’t kept this little fib going for the past year or so. Stupid Maddie. It shouldn’t matter though, it doesn’t change who I am, but I know regardless of whatever excuse I use to try to comfort myself that he’s still going to be mad. And he has a right to be. I guess.
What goes on in my mind? Will somebody please tell me, I’d dearly like to know. Moral of the story: Don’t tell lies, ever.
Now if only I’d take my own advice.
I’m glad of your little hint of nostalgia directed at your writing things, and that you don’t do it as often. I miss them too.